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Fri, Aug. 20th, 2004, 10:17 pm
hello hello

Lack of updates means I'm whipped. Whipped I tell you. Spending loads of fun with the gf. Good times. She doesn't like to tell her friends about me but I'm sure she'll get over it. Or ... something... I've been going to summer school, going to work and spending the rest of my time with Alice. It's not so bad. I enjoy every minute of it so far. ^_________^. I've got me a sexy test on monday and I'm dreading the weekend since Alice is going up to SF while I'm chained to my room studying for this terrible/horrible/godforsaken test. But, hopefully if I do study, it'll pay off in the end. Hope everyone is doing well.

I love Crummy.(=_=; )

Fri, Jul. 16th, 2004, 05:27 am
Can't sleep clowns will eat me...

Listening to My Chemical Love....hmm they aren't bad. Took a wicked midterm today.. we'll see how I do. I just want a B.. is that too much to ask? Slept afterwards and had a nice chat with Alice over the phone...now I can't sleep -_-.

See how dirty my mirror is? God bless me!

If you get the ROOM9 bit.. I'll give you a cookie! Clever/Retarded indeed.

Can't sleep. Gotta get ready for gramps at 6:00am and then off to job interview. Woo...jam-smeggin-packed I tells ya..

Sun, Jul. 11th, 2004, 09:05 pm
This song seems to be on repeat for me hehe.

Thought I'd share it

After bein' 25 you know just trying to survive in the world
Bout to have a little boy or baby girl. Who knows?
Anyway just when you start gettin that little age and experience to you
You start thinkin about stuff...tryin to make the right moves
So bust it out this is what I was thinkin check it

Yo the education of the Lon chicka Lonnie Lynn
Began, began with time
Bein my bloodline is one with the divine
In time brotha, you will discover the light
Some say that God is Black and the Devil's White
Well, the Devil is wrong and God is what's right
I fight, with myself in the ring of doubt and fear
The rain ain't gone, but I can still see clear
As a child, given religion with no answer to why
Just told believe in Jesus cuz for me he did die
Curiosity killed the catechism
Understanding and wisdom became the rhythm that I played to
And became a slave to master self
A rich man is one with knowledge, happiness and his health
My mind had dealt with the books of Zen, Tao the lessons
Koran and the Bible, to me they all vital
And got truth within 'em, gotta read them boys
You just can't skim 'em, different branches of belief
But one root that stem 'em, but people of the venom try to trim 'em
And use religion as an emblem
When it should be a natural way of life
Who am I or they to say to whom you pray ain't right
That's who got you doin right and got you this far
Whether you say "in Jesus name" or Hum do Allah
Long as you know it's a bein' that's supreme to you
You let that show towards others in the things you do
Cuz when the trumpets blowin, 24 elders surround the throne
Only 144,000 gon get home
Only 144,000 gon get home
Only 144,000 gon get it baby

Chorus Cee-Lo:
I've lived and I've learned
I have taken and I've earned
I have laughed, I've cried
I have failed and I have tried
Sunshine, pouring rain
found joy through all my pain
I just wanna be happy with being me

Let me voice my concern
So many of my fellow brothers have given themselves a title
That their actions didn't earn
Our ignorance is in the same breath as our innocence
Subconciously, seeking to find an impressionable mind to convince
I've finally come to the realization why Black people in the worse place
Cuz it's hard to correct yourself when you don't know
Who you are in the first place
So I try to find the clue in you
But evidently, White folks know more Black history than we do
Why're we bein' lied to? I ain't know our history was purposely hidden
Damn, somethin' in me wanna know who I am
So I began my search, my journey started in church
It gave my heartache relief when I started to understand belief
Hustlin was like a gift spent my share of time in the streets
Taught me survival from this evil I'm just gonna have to deal with
And I felt like a fool when I tried to learn it in school
It almost seemed like a rehearsal when the only
Science and math are universal
Takin elder advice, read the Bible, the Koran
Searched scrolls from the Hebrew Israelites
Hold on, this ain't right, Jesus wasn't White
Some leads were granted with insight
and it's all in the plan, but it took me some time to overstand
He still created with the imperfection of man
So, with followin' I disagree
By no means have I forgotten or forgiven what's been done to me but
I do know the Devil ain't no White man, the Devil's a spiritual mind
That's color blind, there's evil White folk and evil niggas
You gon surely find there's no positivity without negativity
But one side you gonna have to choose
Any chance to speak I refuse to misuse
So how can you call yourself God when you let a worldly possession
become an obsession and the way you write your rhymes and
Can't follow your lesson
If a seed's sown, you make sure it's known, you make sure it's grown
If you God, then save your own, don't mentally enslave your own
If you God, then save your own, don't mentally enslave your own
If you God, then save your own, don't mentally enslave your own

Well, I've lived and I've learned
I've taken and I've earned
I have laughed, I have cried
I failed and I have tried
Sunshine, pourin rain
I found joy through my pain
Just wanna be happy...bein me
Bein me

Sun, Jul. 11th, 2004, 04:35 am
Belated belated

Happy Belated Fourth of July. Nothing really new to report. I've been goin to school and hanging out with old friends.

Thought I'd list a few things that have occured to make this post simple and ADD proof:

-I seem mentally tired. Just some stress and other personal family problems seem to hinder me, but it seems as though I can make it. Don't want to sound all sobby. I'm actually really happy these days. Who doesn't enjoy summer vacation eh?

-Hung out with close friends that I haven't seen in ages....

-Went to Gretchen's graduation party and got stuffed eating all that lumpia and Filipino food. Throwing back a few beers with Jason. Great times. Met people that I haven't seen in ages like Helen and Yuka. Hm.. seems as though they've changed for the best. Thanks to Gretchen for the invite. Went upstairs and nearly died laughing when I saw the Class of 2000 pictures. All those friends of mine all walking their own paths. Wonder what happened to Brad, Mark, Mike, Matt, Jimmy.. bleh the list goes on. God... I was such an ass back then. It was good while it lasted and I'm looking forward to what the future is going to provide for me.

-Planning on buying some golf clubs from Gretchen's dad. Looking forward to goin to the driving ranges.

-Midterms! waa! I gotta catch up!

-Flaking out with this "project" of mine with Nick G. I gotta get started on it.

-Hope everyone is well and like Levar Burton would say, " I'll see you next time. "

Mon, Jul. 5th, 2004, 01:33 am
Huh?... yeah just five more minutes ... just five.

Came back home late last night. An old childhood friend, Jason dropped by the apartment. It was nice seeing that crazy bastard again. Dear Jason: LAY OFF THE BOOZE! It was good nonetheless. For dinner we had some Hondaya. We waited and waited...and we finally got served. We met up with some old friends of mine and decided to have dinner together.

Highlight of the night:
-Spilling beer all over myself.
-Not only did I spill beer, but it all somehow poured onto my lap suggesting that I peed all over myself.

Came back home. Afterwards, Jason and I messed around and came back home. Didn't sleep til 9am. I did have breakfast though! I haven't had breakfast in so long. Alice would be proud....I think?

Afterwards, Jason left around 1pm and I got a wonderful call from Licey. We chatted for a bit and somehow I got to talk to her little sister.

nick: How was your day?
Amanda:Good. It's getting hot and cold all the time at the beach.
nick:Oh I see. So what grade are you in?
Amanda: i'm going to be a 7th grader.
nick: ooh.. are you excited?
Amanda: no... I don't want to go to 7th grade.
nick: I see. So Amanda, do you have a boyfriend?
Amanda: No!!!
nick: Why not? Is it because boys have cooties?
Amanda: No!!

Good times. Good times.

I got shot down by a seventh grader...ouch. not only did she shoot me down.. she laughed at me.

Slept and played games with the roommates and actually had dinner with them as well. I was supposed to go to a July 4th party over at the peninsula.. but man.. I was exhausted. Ah well. ^^;

Tue, Jun. 29th, 2004, 10:21 pm
First day of summer school.

Summer school started. Good times...

Woke up at 11am and ran around Irvine doing errands.
Hung out with friends til school time.
Weird seeing no one really on campus. Summer school is so dead.
Sat in class for two hours and thirty minutes of pure boredom.
The subject is interesting and all but seriously...the prof had such a "put nick to sleep" voice.
Came home had dinner.
Passed out til 10:00pm.

Mon, Jun. 28th, 2004, 11:52 pm
Surprise! An update!

Apologies to the few readers that read my journal. How are things you say?

In a nutshell:
-lots of studying
-broke up with the ex (finally)
-mountain racing up in Trabuco Canyon.


I've been goin out alot to hang out with old friends and new ones that I made recently. Things are goin good. I need to start deciding quick with the current openings of jobs I have lined up. But we'll see.

Met a nice girl named Alice at the end of finals. Nice girl! A bit shy but if she read what I said.. she'd probably pummel me with her fists or something. Hung out with her and her friends during the first week of vacation. It was a blast nonetheless. Also went to Magic Mountain and I realized how old I really am. I rode five rides and I was exhausted beyond belief. Weak sauce indeed.

Nothing new to report other then that I'll be hittin summer school. Oh the joys of going back to the university.

Wed, May. 19th, 2004, 05:46 pm
Interesting stuff.


Wow.. I'm just amazed.

Thu, May. 13th, 2004, 08:39 pm
Papers are suffocating me

Papers! Papers! I'm just glad its over for now.

Had a recent debate in politics/economy class. Things got pretty heated. There was so much slander going on, but I enjoyed it nonetheless.

Watched my Lakers play. I nearly peed my pants there. Who would have though Derek Fisher can cut one with only .4 seconds left in the game. Jebus... I'm glad they won. Lets take the Championships!!

Mon, May. 10th, 2004, 03:12 pm

Crazy stuff. Family stuff is goin on. Weird weird stuff. I've been so selfish and preoccupied with my own problems that I neglect the stuff thats going down with my grandpa and grandma. Grandma had a stroke last October and now my grandpa is starting to lose his train of thought and judgement. An excerpt from my cousin Liz's email:

Friday night was scary. It was about midnight and my mom and I were getting ready to go to sleep after cleaning up for sam choon, sookmo and paul. Anyhow, all of a sudden, gramma starts screaming so my mom runs into her room and asks her, what the matter is. Apparently, granpa was trying to hit her and I'm not sure if he was hallucinating or dreaming (nightmare) or??? So, gramma leaves the room, my mom tells grandpa to calm down and he won't. He tries to follow her outside and my mom locks the door. He then goes on this rage about how he hates us and that gramma hit him first so he must retaliate. Hmm.. gramma just had a stroke in Oct of last year. Her arm isn't strong enough to be hitting grampa. It just doesn't make sense. So, in the end, kun sam choon came and took grams to his place and she spent the night there.

Shocking stuff. I never imagined my grandpa breaking down like that. My grandpa wouldn't hurt anything! But, hitting my grandma? It just doesn't register correctly in my head. I can't believe old age can change so much. Thats too much. Hmm.. it would be great to go back to the days when I would run around my grandparents' garden and helping them pull up radishes and picking tomatoes. Eating watermelons with them in the summertime with the weather just right.

Heh.. wishful thinking. Grow up Nick.

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